It's not Obsession

Back when I got into the whole 'pretend to be someone else on the internet' thing, it wasn't RP, it was Writing Prompts. Theatrical Muse on LJ - Helen of Troy. There WAS RP, but it wasn't like, the driving force. It was all about the character and from there came fun interactions.

Then the move to IJ came and no more prompts. More RP. And the RP is fun, but I feel less... connected (?) to the people I write for. Like, the ones I pick up aren't ones that I know that well and the ones that I DO know well, no one else knows. *shrugs* Plus, adding to that, it doesn't matter how panfandom something is, it's all just an excuse to play with just your friends/fandoms that you know anyway. No one ever branches out and if you try, you are literally IGNORED. Your comment is passed by.

It's boring. Or, rather, it WASN'T boring but now it is. So, what do I do? I retreat to playing with the characters I like most with the people I like most. Vicious circle? Yeah. So, I'm not doing the things I WANTED to do (Shan/Bond, Anne/Sam, people at LC) even though those are the characters I know the most because I don't want to bother other people. And then I feel bad. So I'm like, "I should really get on that. *pause* Soon. *pause* Yeah." And then three days go by, lather, rinse, repeat.

I don't have it in me to drop characters that have things going on, it'd make me feel bad. But I don't want to play at the moment, either. And THAT makes me feel bad.

I'm just burnt out. *sighs* Ugh.

... How are YA'LL doin' today? :D