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[May 10] ... eh
So, today was That Day. You know the one. Well, some of you. I guess some of you didn't. For those just joining this lil rollercoaster, I had a daughter and on Mother's Day in 1998, she was murdered. And back in 1998, that day was May 10. If you want the details, that whole horror story can be found [here].

Normally, I'm pretty chill, but this year was just hard. I dunno, lots of factors, I guess. But whatever the deal, we went to the cemetery. Me, Cher & Kyle. David had Jack.

Now, and this is where those of you that DON'T know me might get a bit horrified (and I'm sorry) but, we had a great time. Cher was cracking jokes (and no, she didn't shriek as we stabbed the ground again) but we just blew grass whistles and she accidentally-on-purpose made a very sharp whistle with her fingers and it ECHOED...

The cemetery was kinda crowded.

The jokes weren't entirely off color, but some were, and it was just kinda light-hearted as we sat there on the ground and talked. And then, of course, I got mean in my head about HIM and cried a little and then we were all good.

Got home and then DAVID STAYED FOR LIKE... HOURS. Ugh. Kicked him out when it was time for food. Yeah, it made me uncomfortable, especially since Cher and I fought about it yesterday and she said he wasn't going to come over. I don't think she was expecting him to stay and she did ask if I wanted her to ask him to leave, but I didn't want to look like a bitch.

And I didn't lose it until he was like, "Was Amy his?"

Why do people ask that? And Cher was like, "Why? Would that make it okay?" And he started to JUSTIFY IT! JUSTIFY. IT. And so I looked at Jack and said, "Run, Jack, run." And gave David a dirty look and then cried in the kitchen.

She was, but it doesn't matter. Because that makes MURDER okay. af;djska;fgj'ds;agjkh

I'm over it. It's DAVID, right? Considering the source, I can't even be mad. Psh.



And then I took a glorious shower. :) So, it could have been worse. I was just tired.